There are decisions we face at one time or another that hold you on a tight leash. Avoiding and pretending doesn’t free you. Hoping that it will all work itself out is a pipe dream. You have to jump in, make the tough call, and prepare for the fallout.
At this time of year I want it all to be fa la la la la and cute scarves and decorating trees. I don’t want to worry about the right decision and how I can’t control the outcome and how it’s going to hurt.
Sometimes you have to say no and it doesn’t feel good like the self-help types say it will. Using my boundaries is not all it’s chalked up to be. Sometimes you do what is best for you and your family. You go with your gut and your gut says enough.
My heart aches with my decision, but there is peace and, damn, I want peace this Christmas.