My mom spent a few days with me when my car got stuck and I was going crazy with cabin fever trapped in my house. My mom rarely sits still. She helps, cooks, cleans and there is still more to do. My mom has always been like this. She will stop for a cup of coffee and just as the conversation is getting good she is onto the next task.
I love my mom.
I gave up on having long drawn out conversations or having mother/daughter shopping trips long ago. My mother’s love comes in help and generosity. In her never give up spirit.
She still knows my needs before I know them. She still reminds me to wear a coat and immediately passes me the ibuprofen when I get a headache. When I get too quiet and lose my personality she knows it’s because I’m hungry. Every once in a while she’ll slip me a twenty for no reason at all. She’ll give me advice I need and don’t need. Sometimes I roll my eyes like I’m fifteen and get impatient and my mom still believes I can be anything I want to be.
She hasn’t had an easy life. She has it harder than most and I won’t get into all the reasons why. I often think there is a special place in heaven for my mom when she leaves this earth.
As a child I witnessed my mom’s mistakes and guilt trips and I thought I’ll do better. I was wrong. I grew up, got married, had kids and make mistakes and lose my temper. It’s so easy to idealize motherhood when you’re little and you don’t know how hard it is. I didn’t have the mother of my dreams. I had something better.
My mom kept me safe. She gave up her bed for me when my eight year old self was plagued with recurring nightmares. She almost always knew what was best for me. My mom is a good mother. She always has been. She is the reason I’m strong.
Does anyone remember a song by Jann Arden called Good Mother? I first heard it…oh, ages ago now…and, anyway, here are some of the lyrics.
I’ve got money in my pocket,
I like the color of my hair.
I’ve got a friend who loves me,
Got a house, I’ve got a car.
I’ve got a good mother,
and her voice is what keeps me here.
Feet on ground,
Heart in hand,
In Returning Favorite TV Shows
If you haven’t guessed I’m a TV freak! Good TV that is. Well, what I deem to be good TV anyway.
Lost returns next week!! Friday Night Lights returns and if you haven’t seen this show give it a try. Give it 3 episodes and start at the first season. NBC does stupid things like try to make this show all glossy in their promos, but it isn’t a glossy show. It is a down to earth you will fall in love with the coach and his wife why haven’t they won their Emmys yet kind of show. I don’t give a rat’s ass about football and I completely fell in love with this show. It is about far more than teenagers and football. It has depth and heart and its back on the 16th!! Big Love is back on the 18th. The women on this show are nothing short of amazing.