Slow Down

I had all intentions of writing a proper post, but for today it will be an update. A quick one. My leg infection has returned. I’m walking, if you want to call it that, like a little old lady of 90. When your doctor and your leg guy (my prosthetician) tell you it is possible for this infection to travel into your bone or bloodstream you pause. When you get sent in for blood work and the next possible steps are x-rays and ultrasounds you take a breath.

We’re nearing the end of our renovations. It’s coming along and beginning to feel like home. Tomorrow the bedroom and bathroom are being painted.

I’ve been to my daughter’s school. I’ve talked to parents. We’ve had a few talks of sticking up for oneself and when to walk away.

February is full, but March has fewer scribbles, less musts…more clean, open spaces….more nothing. I want to try to keep it that way.

I am tired, people. I’m alright. Just tired.

Sometimes life has a way of telling you to slow down. Sometimes it’s a gentle nudge in that direction or it’s a loud yell or a red flag. All signs, for me, point to slow down. So, I am waving my white flag and surrendering to something I’m not very good at but I have to…need to…do. Rest.

Swept Up

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13 thoughts on “Slow Down

  1. Dorkys Ramos

    I hope the infection goes away soon and no extra steps are needed. I’ll be sending good thoughts your way from here 🙂

    And your body does have its way of letting you know when you need to stop. We just have a way of pushing all warning signs aside and trying to work through it until our body just gives out. I’m the same way. Just stop before you’re forced to come to a screeching halt.

  2. dawn

    sending lots and lots of good stuff your way so you can be well heidi. the wisdom of our bodies tends to get kind of loud sometimes when we’re pushing too hard. sounds like you’re listening and i’m glad. just really really thinking about you. xxoo

  3. Heidi

    dorkys, i know!! i’m terrible for just ignoring things and hoping for the best. it’s a futile fight though. my body always wins or loses depending on how you look at it.
    thanks for the well wishes…you’re such a sweetheart!

    dawn, my body is loud and clear at the moment. i think it’s hard because i don’t feel like myself. I can’t do the things I normally would and it’s defeating, you know? thank you for your kind words as always. and your good thoughts. 🙂

  4. amisare waswerebeen

    I’ll be praying that your leg heals up soon. Take it easy and take a breath. Hope it is better soon.

  5. Khaled KEM

    I hope that you will be recover very soon from this infection. Rest well and do all that you need of rest to let your leg heals quickly.
    Have a great week-end.

  6. Suz Broughton

    I’m sorry to hear about your infection. You have been non-stop since Dec. so yes, maybe it’s time to slow down a bit.
    Hope you are better soon.

  7. Linda Sue

    DANG! WEll that just sucks! PLEASE allow yourself to rest and heal well, you are so important to all of us on the planet at this moment! So, put down what ever you are doing and plump up the pillows with a bood book or some DVD’s and stay there- or you are so grounded , missy!
    Be well!!

  8. Heidi

    amisare, khaled, suz, linda sue, sugarlens, isabella, thank you all so so much.
    i am beyond bored, but i’m trying to take it easy as best as i can trying to not let all the things I need to do get to me. i don’t know why this is so hard.
    and i’m going to do something fun and girly, but still restful tonight.
    thanks again for all the support!

  9. thezeninyou

    Oh do get some rest! Our bodies know just what we need. Don’t feel guilty either…just relax so you can heal and renew… Enjoy!

  10. kendalee

    O Heidi, how horrid! And so hard to be inactive even when one knows it’s for the best and the body screams out for it. I’ll just add my wishes for a speedy recovery too and send lots of good vibes your way… Take care of yourself!

  11. LMN

    Oh gosh, please slow down! Rest rest rest! I am thinking of you and wishing you strong and healthy blood to fight that infection, along with lots of sleep and cuddles from loved ones.


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