I think much of our lives can be summed up in hindsight. I look back and I’m reminded of where I’ve come from. It adds to the big picture. It becomes a part of my future.

I can be quick to bury the past and move on. I don’t do Facebook or high school reunions. I don’t want to catch up on the last twenty years and then say, “Let’s go out for coffee sometime”, when you never will. That doesn’t mean I’m not thrilled to run into someone I haven’t seen for ages or get an email from a long lost high school friend. I’m just a like to live here and now and wonder what’s next kinda girl.

I’m learning to honor my past by the lessons I’ve learned and the baby steps I’ve taken. Leaps of faith, crossing milestones and broken patterns have made my present secure. My failures and victories give me a strong foundation – a foundation I can stand on and go from. Rather than wipe away my past and start over I’ll take it with me, plant another marker along a row dotted with earlier markers and shrines dedicated to living, walk into a brilliant future where I’ll remember that I’ve already achieved the impossible a few times and I can damn well do it again.

Swept Up

In Crescent Beach
Scott and I ditched the kids (thank you Val, my mother in law, and Caitlin, my niece), went out for dinner and went for a walk at Crescent Beach. I found this lovely photo of Crescent Beach at Google Images taken by Omar Branine.

11 thoughts on “markers

  1. Isabella Snow

    I’m not a big FB user but I do think it’s very interesting to see how people turned out. Found myself really feeling proud of more than a few of them. I think you probably have more than a few who’d feel similarly about you.

  2. Mar

    Crescent Beach is one of my favorite places on earth. I love it there – of course you do too. AND by the way, just in case I haven’t told you recently…I think you are AWESOME!

  3. Brandi

    “…and I can damn well do it again.” Amen sister! I can totally get a sense of your strength through your writing…I hope your future is even more brilliant than you can imagine 🙂

  4. Heidi

    isabella, i’m not knocking facebook exactly and i know it’s been a great way for people to connect…who knows…maybe one day i’ll succumb, but not yet.

    mar, it’s so peaceful there. i could stare out at that ocean forever. and…thanks, friend.

    brandi, thank you. i hope it is too. i wish the same for you. 🙂

  5. sugarlens

    Sounds like you had a lovely evening! I love walking on the beach when the sun is down. Too bad there are no beaches nearby where I live.

  6. Anna See

    this post was inspiring! i think i get so caught up in the day to day i don't think of the lessons i could and should be learning.

  7. kendalee

    "I’ll remember that I’ve already achieved the impossible a few times and I can damn well do it again." Too right you can!!!

    I don't like to be too backward-looking but those markers become my personal yardstick… And I agree that there's value in recognising how far I've already travelled and some of the things that shaped me along the way… Perspective works in both directions, doesn't it? 🙂

  8. Chris

    I'm kinda the same way. I do like looking at old photos, talking about good times and dwelling over memories of my life. But I also prefer to move on with life, and I don't hold on to the past so much that it drags me down. To me, the present is an live video that fascinates me, and the future is something to dream and wonder about.

  9. Christy

    I got all caught up in Facebook when I first discovered it last year – and I'm really looking forward to reconnecting with an old friend this summer in Chicago. But I never plan on high school reunions, etc…Great post, and how nice that you got a date at the beach! How lucky to live near the ocean!

  10. Suz Broughton

    I'm not going to try to change your mind about Facebook, you might have gathered, I'm a HUGE fan. Glad you had some time away. it looks beautiful.

  11. Heidi

    sugarlens, we're pretty lucky to live near the beach. it's one of the things i love the most about living in bc – the beaches…and the mountains – it's that we have both that make it so great.

    anna see, thank you! i easily get caught up in the day to day…my blog is one of those places that i can just stop for a second and reflect a little.

    kenda, definitely! perspective works in both directions. i like that.

    chris, yes! absolutely.

    christy, oh, i hope i'm not offending anyone with the facebook thing. i totally recognize that it's a great way to connect with people…and how fun for you, by the way, meeting up in Chicago!!

    suz, see above where i say i hope i'm not offending anyone with my aversion to facebook. you know i heart you. 🙂

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